Its 1:00 AM in the night. I am awake because I cannot sleep. Hence, I decide to clean my room. I start with the old question papers, the old short notes and all other old old stuff that I once used to study for Law School Entrances. As I'm gathering it I feel emotional. A lump comes up and holds itself right in the throat. I feel as if I'm gathering pieces of my shattered dream.

I somehow manage to cool down and tell myself "Hey! its not as if you are not going to be admitted anywhere! You are still going to a good college! What's more now that you'll have more time you can complete your french course, learn the flute and even intern anywhere you want almost everyday. Now you have all the choices open! It's as if everything you ever wanted is lying at your feet!! You only have to choose what you want to pick up!"

The other voice however comes out too. It is weaker that the first voice, but it comes out. It says "Look at X. Look how happy X is. Only if you had worked a little harder you'd have been there! After all you've lost NALSAR only by 4 marks! HOw could you Prince...How could you??"

One side of me wants to attempt these entrances again. The other however refuses. It says "Look at all the world that is now open! You'll be more than just a lawyer if you use your time well!"

Inside of me there is this third voice which I think is my conscience mixed with my emotions. It says "Why can't we have both? Why can't you be at a law school and do all those things you want to do too??"

I don't know whether you remember what I told you that day on that katta of mine. I'd said every question has 3 ends. 1st is that you get an answer. 2nd is that you don't get an answer and the 3rd is you put the question off. Kill it. Ignore it. Try to draw your mind away from it. Suffocate it. To do just that I came online at this unearthly hour.

I dont know whether it is your help, ear, advice that I seek or is it just my own way of clearing my thoughts. Just read this and do what you think is apt.

Prince...