Importance...

We're on our bus back to the hostel after having done well at a Law Fest. I'm very happy happy with my performance before a lightening strikes. The lightening tells me the girl I've loved for the last three years has committed to someone else.

The first thought that comes to my mind?

Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I had expected myself to go hyper. To pull my hair out, to cry or to do something stupid. Instead, I just breath easy and for some reason my body starts sweating. Calm and composed for others, I just close my eyes and wait for us to reach the hostel. On reaching the hostel all I badly need is a strong cup of coffee. I tell my team mates I am going out for one. I have one and return home to concentrate on the finals on the next day. Nothing bothers me at all.

I don't know how I soaked such a huge shock in so easily. I had dreamed of her. I have loved her. Still do. I could have done anything for her in the madness of my love. As a person and a friend she had inspired me, changed me and changed me so much! Changing for her had never been a question. I could have changed anything if she'd wanted me to. How could I take such a shock in so easily?

It wasn't even that I had not told her about my feelings for her. I had on several occassions in several different ways and her answer had always been "Wait. We're too young still" and waiting I was.

Just watched this movie called "Dil Dosti etc." A character called Sanjay Mishra and his girlfriend (Forgot her name!) are madly in love before she betrays him. He can't believe the fact that she has betrayed and ultimately kills himself. Worst is the fact that he catches her red handed with one of his best friends. He dies and lives of both, his girlfriend and his friend just move on.

Once I had lost so many competitions so badly. Today I find myself on the verge of winning but there's so much difference in the way I wait for results. Earlier I wanted to WIN! and after putting in so many efforts I just couldnt take in that there could be any other result. Today when I'm waiting for results, frankly, I just dont care. The attitude is "I have done what I could. Have learnt alot in doing it, have enjoyed doing it so much. Anything else hardly matters."

The point I'm trying to make is just this. Sometimes we give too much importance to too many trifles in our lives. Trifles we could have done without, trifles we can do without. So whether she says a yes or no next time you ask her, whether you win or lose a competition after putting in nights of oil or whether the person you love the most dies, it's just a trifle we've been giving too much importance to. Do what you can do when you can do it and leave the rest upto Him because nothing is as important as you think it is.

The Happy Prince.

Will the Golden Days never return?
Or Will the returned days never be Golden?
Does Gold change with days?
Or do days change with Gold?

Emotions change and so do relations,
But does Gold change with seasons?
Year passes when a season returns
Why dont men wait then, till emotions reutrn?

I want to cry today, my heart has broken.
Why can't she even lend a hand? Just as a token?
Still love her for the pain she has given...

So what if i'm not there, I can at least dream of my heaven
She made me believe dreams come true...
I say "I believe it dear coz i still believe in you."

The Happy Prince

Gambler…

The very word 'Gambler' has so much of a negative connotation to it. He's a negative person in every way no matter what he gambles with or for. But I'm particularly interested in card gamblers. Look at the way the play their games.

First they let people know that they gamble but they never tell them their tricks of winning the games. They never show people their cards and they always guess, mostly on logic, what the cards of the opponent might be. Every time they're betting on winning.

I just have one question. What's the difference between a person who really wants to win and the gambler I described above?

Hardly any.

The Happy Prince

Nostalgia

An innocent running stream of fresh cold water,
The first silky ray of the tender morning sun,
Deep green waters of solitary seas,
The only line of golden lights shining in a dark cold night,
The sole long shadow that witnesses the orange setting sun,
The fallen eyelash of the most treasured eye,
The tears of sheer happiness after the much desired achievement
And a hand that runs through your hair caring the most….

Are all forms of a never ending and ever desired…nostalgia!

The Happy Prince

Think...

We’re all on a run, but for a moment wait!
Just think of your fate
Who are we? Where is our compound?
Where is our gate?

Where do we start?
Where do we end?
What do we borrow?
What can we lend?

We’re on a road
But where does it lead?
We hear many voices
But whom do we heed?

We have empty hands
But we have open minds
We’re young, we’re fast
We come in all kinds

Am I all alone?
Or am I amongst the gifted few?
Do I belong to a crowd?
Or am I unique like all of you?

We have our flaws
And we have our qualities
But trust me, we’re all equal
When it comes to life’s realities

If not now then when?
If not now then it wont be late then?
Think! Think! Think! This is the time
Years will pass just in a blink…


The Happy Prince

People Only Decide...

He won all the races
And he had all the aces
Wherever he went
He won! Won! Won!
There was no doubt
He was One! One! One!
And when the final moment came
Something went wrong
He started all right
But he lost by long
What happened did happen
And he cannot ask why
What happened did happen
He cannot sit and cry
What happened did happen
He has to accept it
What happened did happen
He must not forget it
What happened did happen
From it he must learn
He must start all over
And what he lost he must yearn

Its true life’s unfair
And justice is in books
There are honest people
And there exist crooks
And one doesn’t always eat
Whatever he cooks
Is true life’s unfair
And justice is in books
Man only endeavors
Its god who delivers
Man appoints people, calls ‘em judges
And sets ‘em god beside
God does justice, people only decide…

The Happy Prince

Misunderstanding...

Let’s take a situation. He is an average Indian husband and she, an average Indian wife. He comes home from work. Tired. She’s come just before him and has changed into easy casuals one usually wears at home. They’ve a kid. It has just started walking. It walks but falls very often. It has just fallen and she’s just nursed him. It took her about half an hour to do that. She’s tired too, still she asks him for tea. He says he wants it. Then she cooks for him and asks about dinner. He says he’ll have it at home. She cooks a full meal too. Now she’s exhausted.

Earlier in the morning they’d decided to drive about 200 kms to her friend’s wedding. It is supposed to happen the next day. He had asked her to be ready when he came. She was. But when she saw her husband’s state of energy she decided not to remind him of it. However, he still remembers because he’s fond of driving and they have just bought a new car.

He asks “When’re we leaving?” She says we’ll leave soon and gets busy with the kid, utensils and the kitchen while he prods through the maze of TV channels. An hour later he asks “Are we leaving or not?” she says “Its not necessary that we go.” She’s just concerned. Her husband is tired.

Sometime later he asks her again “Do you want to go or not?” Again she says “Its not necessary that we go.” That’s not the questions says he. “Do you want to or not?” Again replies she “Its not necessary…”

Then they have a fight. He didn’t understand she was only caring for him. She didn’t understand he only wanted an answer. A “Yes” or a “No”

He didn’t understand she is tired too, she didn’t understand her husband loves driving. He wouldn’t want to miss a chance.

What do you think would have happened if this had been the case:

He comes home from work. Tired. She asks him for tea. He says he wants it. She cooks it for him. She asks whether he wants to dine at home. He gets up from infront of the TV and helps her around in the kitchen. They dine together. Clean together. Then he asks her about the trip. She says she wants to go if he's not tired. They go for the drive.

OR

She says "I'm tired too, let's not go." And they don't go for the drive.

No arguments. No loud voices. A simple regular conversation.

Most problems are mere misunderstandings. A little obervance and empathy is all that is needed.

The Happy Prince...
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